Life

CHILDREN, ye have not lived, to you it seems
Life is a lovely stalactite of dreams,
Or carnival of careless joys that leap
About your hearts like billows on the deep
In flames of amber and of amethyst.


Children, ye have not lived, ye but exist
Till some resistless hour shall rise and move
Your hearts to wake and hunger after love,
And thirst with passionate longing for the things
That burn your brows with blood-red sufferings.


Till ye have battled with great grief and fears,
And borne the conflict of dream-shattering years,
Wounded with fierce desire and worn with strife,
Children, ye have not lived: for this is life.

Sarojini Naidu

Be wiser please, for goodness sake!

Seems like i haven't been opening my eyes for so many years. But things have happened that i am forced to open my eyes. At least by doing so, i can stop hoping for things that will never ever happen. Why does every one i know take me for granted? They will only come to me when they need help from me?

I know who are the ones, who will really be there for me at times i need. Listen to me... Care for me...

I need to take back the love i gave people and give them to who are the ones who really deserve it.

And at the end of the day, learn to love myself more...cos no one would.

Low immunity year

This year is a low immunity year for me.

I have been falling sick more often than ever.

My skin, the largest organ in the whole body is raising its alarm. I have Athletes' foot (which is still not healing), Eczema on both feets and the areas are getting larger and now i have 2 spots which cold sores has appeared.

How sad. I have tons and tons of creams that i need to apply...

Write ups...write ups and more write ups

I am in the midst of finding the last prescription's drugs. Its the eye drops that's giving me the trouble. I just can't seemed to find information on it.

Today i stayed till 7.3opm. I believe this is the last day which i have to stay back after work to do my write ups, at least for now. When i was outside my house, i suddenly experience the lightheadness feeling, could have fell down. Really feel dizziness from lack of sleep. But well, at least i can hand it in on mon, as per deadline.

My partner who started work the same day as me told me one day after she ask the in charge, if we have to submit as per the deadline. Once she got the "positive" answer, she came over to discuss with me, asking me to "help" her--- something i could not expect someone to mouth it. She told me to help her by doing slowly, as i have been doing almost every single day.

Well, frankly speaking i don't really do every single day. I only try to reach early and use the time to do. Sometimes, due to tiredness or traffic problems, i don't even reach early. At home i don't do much, because i can't really find the information w/o the program that is only available on computers who have signed up for it (charges). Instead at home, i just fb, online shopping, play games.

Today, she actually jokingly told me that she told another friend that she wants to change partner to her. Cos its very stress to be partnering me. Well, i seriously dunno why.

It just feels like my hard work is being condemned.

It just seems weird to be bucking up by asking people to slow down.

Phrase of the day: Persistence--- It does not matter how slowly you go, as long as you do not stop.

Competency Test has Started...

I have just gotten my competency timeline. Now i am trying to complete my interventions- verbal and written. For the verbal, it is done, just need a pharmacist to assess it in the form. I have 1 written and i need 2 more... Which is not a big issue, will get them, just get a simple one will do.

The problem is with the write ups. 2 prescriptions from the 16 disciplines, which means 32 prescriptions. I am in the midst of collecting, but some are really not that common. Got to find time to look into those boxes to find the older prescriptions of that disciplines. Write up is really one that will make me worry and would have to think about it even after work. The worst thing is, i need reliable sources. I can foresee myself staying back after work to try to gather the information. I shall start that soon, maybe this sat.

I really feel as though i am back to my attachment days, but this time round, the expectations and tasks are much higher and complex.

On the side note, i really find that i need to exercise. Just doing simple tasks like squatting, standing and stuff can make me feel so tired. I am so out of the "exercise world". I think i should find some time to maybe go for a run...

The Birthday Song- Corrinne May

An all time favourite...

I love the lyrics, i love the music, i love the piano, i love the vocal, i love everything about this song.

Song for Singapore by Corrinne May

National Day Parade 2010 Theme Song

Song for Singapore

Written and Performed by Corrinne May

It's a brand new day a brand new story

I remember the way it used to be

We've come so far

You're my history you're my beginning

In all I've done I've nurtured in your arms

and you've carried me this far

I want to sing

sing a song for Singapore

with every generation there's more to be grateful for

So come and sing

sing a song for Singapore

You're my brother you're my sister

I'm thankful for my Singapore

My Singapore

Singapore

Come together everybody

Fly the flag and share our story

Live our wildest dreams

Celebrate the red and white

The moon and stars in harmony unite

Let every colour and every heart

Come on and sing

sing a song for Singapore

with every generation there's more to be grateful for

So come and sing

sing a song for Singapore

You're my brother you're my sister

I'm thankful for my Singapore

My Singapore

Singapore

We've had our ups and downs

Sometimes the best things are taken for granted

You're my family you're my home

I want to sing

sing a song for Singapore

with every generation there's more to be grateful for

So come and sing

sing a song for Singapore

You're my brother you're my sister

I'm thankful for my Singapore

My Singapore

Singapore